Loss (Pipeline of Friendship)
11/8/2014
By Joy Lynn Clark
The Pipeline of Friendship by Dazee Dizzle
It’s that time of year again and I like many other Americans went to the polls to vote. I am voting from the city this year as where I lived in the suburbs the year before. I went to the poll ID in hand and my name wasn’t in the system. I politely told the worker that my ID has my current address. In addition, when I changed my information over I made sure that I registered to vote at the DMV. “Sorry, there’s nothing I can do you are not in our system”. I was very surprised. We stepped aside and he told me that I would have to either vote provisional or go to a poll a distance away. So I asked about the provisional vote, he said he did not know if it would count. WTF? In all of my adult years I have never been kept from voting. I thought about the travel. Unfortunately, my son had activities and it was just a bad time to travel. Did this guy just make it extremely difficult for me to vote? This a very recent and big loss.
In the last few years I have been experiencing loss on a regular basis. Recently, several family members died. In addition, I have had some elderly relatives that I have been worried about. Also, people are sick.
In lots of families the death of a loved one can bring people together. In my situation, It has been more divisive.
I have lost friends for other reasons. Mainly family. Although I am not the type to wallow in my own misery, I wonder about family. I have to keep it together. I can’t give anyone the impression that I’ve lost it. On the other hand, I wonder if they think I haven’t expressed enough emotion.
Loss. It has become way too commonplace.
The Pipeline of Friendship
I had a bunch of friends
Until they all moved away
Some went east
And some went west
But only a couple stayed
I missed them long
And accepted they’re gone
And hoped that
they’d call when they visit
but then I got mad
and acted glad
and played it off cause I missed it
and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend
but the truth is I don’t know
If we can’t give eachother what we need
Should we just let the friendship go?
But I don’t wanna be alone
Though I’m not getting what I need
Maybe I just can’t compromise
I always follow or take the lead
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
Got some new friends in the city
But some things didn’t click
Had a lot of fun when we went out
But we couldn’t get too serious
Opened my heart
And went too far
Cause they were already close
Just because we hang out everyday
Doesn’t mean they trust me the most
and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend
but the truth is I don’t know
If we can’t give eachother what we need
Should we just let the friendship go?
But I don’t wanna be alone
Though I’m not getting what I need
Maybe I just can’t compromise
I always follow or take the lead
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
I don’t know if they lie
And I don’t know why
They think it’s cause I lack experience
I’ll beta test when I feel like I’ve been pressed
And chalk it up as bad experiments
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
These loved ones gone
And it’s been too long
Missing like the life I once had
Never alone but it was going bad
When I call you’re never home
Leaving you a message and don’t call back
So I leave you alone
and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend
but the truth is I don’t know
If we can’t give eachother what we need
Should we just let the friendship go?
But I don’t wanna be alone
Though I’m not getting what I need
Maybe I just can’t compromise
I always follow or take the lead
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
I got contingencies and plans
And I’m losing all my friends
Just cause they don’t know me
Run the same races
See eachother’s faces
But the truth is
They just can’t show me
