Loss (Pipeline of Friendship)

11/8/2014

By Joy Lynn Clark

The Pipeline of Friendship by Dazee Dizzle

It’s that time of year again and I like many other Americans went to the polls to vote.  I am voting from the city this year as where I lived in the suburbs the year before.  I went to the poll ID in hand and my name wasn’t in the system.  I politely told the worker that my ID has my current address.  In addition, when I changed my information over I made sure that I registered to vote at the DMV.  “Sorry, there’s nothing I can do you are not in our system”.  I was very surprised.  We stepped aside and he told me that I would have to either vote provisional or go to a poll a distance away.  So I asked about the provisional vote, he said he did not know if it would count.  WTF?  In all of my adult years I have never been kept from voting.  I thought about the travel.  Unfortunately, my son had activities and it was just a bad time to travel.  Did this guy just make it extremely difficult for me to vote?  This a very recent and big loss.

In the last few years I have been experiencing loss on a regular basis.  Recently, several family members died.  In addition, I have had some elderly relatives that I have been worried about.  Also, people are sick.

In lots of families the death of a loved one can bring people together.  In my situation, It has been more divisive.

I have lost friends for other reasons.  Mainly family.  Although I am not the type to wallow in my own misery, I wonder about family.  I have to keep it together.  I can’t give anyone the impression that I’ve lost it.  On the other hand, I wonder if they think I haven’t expressed enough emotion.

Loss.  It has become way too commonplace.

The Pipeline of Friendship

I had a bunch of friends

Until they all moved away

Some went east

And some went west

But only a couple stayed

I missed them long

And accepted they’re gone

And hoped that

they’d call when they visit

but then I got mad

and acted glad

and played it off cause I missed it

and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend

but the truth is I don’t know

If we can’t give eachother what we need

Should we just let the friendship go?

But I don’t wanna be alone

Though I’m not getting what I need

Maybe I just can’t compromise

I always follow or take the lead

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

Got some new friends in the city

But some things didn’t click

Had a lot of fun when we went out

But we couldn’t get too serious

Opened my heart

And went too far

Cause they were already close

Just because we hang out everyday

Doesn’t mean they trust me the most

and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend

but the truth is I don’t know

If we can’t give eachother what we need

Should we just let the friendship go?

But I don’t wanna be alone

Though I’m not getting what I need

Maybe I just can’t compromise

I always follow or take the lead

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

I don’t know if they lie

And I don’t know why

They think it’s cause I lack experience

I’ll beta test when I feel like I’ve been pressed

And chalk it up as bad experiments

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

These loved ones gone

And it’s been too long

Missing like the life I once had

Never alone but it was going bad

When I call you’re never home

Leaving you a message and don’t call back

So I leave you alone

and I’m thinking that I’m not a good friend

but the truth is I don’t know

If we can’t give eachother what we need

Should we just let the friendship go?

But I don’t wanna be alone

Though I’m not getting what I need

Maybe I just can’t compromise

I always follow or take the lead

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me

I got contingencies and plans

And I’m losing all my friends

Just cause they don’t know me

Run the same races

See eachother’s faces

But the truth is

They just can’t show me